Objective Jerk
Army Veteran Asshole that is learning to love Jesus. I use my MIC / Platform as a form of "Therapy", no schedule, no script, just whatever is floating my boat at the moment.
Objective Jerk
FILM MORALITY: Progression from Depression? ,and Society's Lust Dilemma
What happens when your mood swings dictate the rhythm of your creativity and productivity? Join me on a candid exploration of how living with depression and bipolar tendencies molds my everyday life and artistic output. From the way I organize my workspace to how I tackle personal projects, I share insights from my mental health journey and the perpetual tug-of-war between motivation and apathy. It's a heartfelt conversation that seeks to resonate with anyone navigating similar challenges, offering a shared space for reflection and growth.
Switching gears, we probe the complex narratives surrounding exposure to sexual content and its subtle grip on societal morals. We question the gradual escalation from innocent indulgences to more extreme inclinations and the societal acceptance that fuels these shifts. By examining modern controversies and gender norms, we highlight the potent influence of lust as a driver of moral decay. I wrap up by inviting listeners to contribute their own stories on mental health and intimacy, creating a safe and open dialogue for shared experiences.
What's going on everybody? How are you I was going to talk about? Why is gratuitous violence accepted in mainstream films but not sex? Have you ever thought about it? Have you ever wondered it? Or at least you think about it all the time? I used to not understand it, but I think I do now. But before I get into that though, how's everybody doing? I'm doing all right. Thanks for asking.
Speaker 1:I've been cleaning up and organizing and stuff, so my thing has changed. I had like a standing up desk with a bar stool type chair in it, which I liked recording the podcast. I liked standing, but I needed to move the printer to a central location, since now you can kind of just connect to the internet so anybody can print, you know, from their room or whatever, so move the printer from out of here and into the, into the living room and and stuff like that. Just been working on organizing, so I've kind of like been I haven't recorded. It's been like almost two weeks, I think, since I recorded anything for the podcast.
Speaker 1:And I've noticed, though, with my depression or whatever it is I don't know, depression or whatever it is, I don't know, but I used to be, I talk a lot about I think I'm bipolar and I'd have manic highs and lows, and I still think I do, but I don't think there were extreme. I think I had a low bipolarism, like it was there, but it wasn't quite as bad as other people I've read, you know what the things that they go through. It was the same, but just at a lower level. And but I do kind of feel like my, my manic highs are kind of going away, which is good, which is. Is that even possible? I don't know, maybe I didn't have, maybe it was like a combination with the meds I was taking. I don't know, but I've. I think I just got done being depressed. I never know. I'm depressed. When I'm depressed it's only afterward, but I wasn't like really, really low depressed.
Speaker 1:What I've kind of noticed is when I'm in my depressed mode, I just don't really care about anything, I just don't do much and I just do enough to kind of get by. And then when I'm not depressed is when I'm a normal person and, like you know, like I'm tired of my room being dirty or my tools being unorganized or whatever you know, and I want to organize them and I've always kind of been that way. But it seems like the manic highs and everything has kind of changed. So it's like manic highs and everything has kind of changed. So it's like I used to like when I was in my good mood or manic high, I would just be like like I just did a line of Coke Not that I know what that's like, and I'm just like cleaning and wanting to get everything done. And so now, like that's how I've been, thank God, I love when I'm in my good moods and I just want to get stuff organized and cleaned and stuff like that, like my tools in my garage, has been a mess for so long. So I finally I moved my tools back into the house, into this little extra room that we have, and that way it freed up a lot of space in here so I could kind of move some stuff and clean up in here, which in turn, you know, now my desk changed and everything but. So it seems like things are better. It's just different.
Speaker 1:I don't know the, but what I've noticed is like I used to think when I was in my, my depressed mood, I didn't like recording podcasts because I didn't care, but that was that's kind of hit or miss or whatever, because I don't know, like I'm. I'm constantly trying to figure it out. You out, they always say you should write a journal to kind of record how you feel and the things you're doing. I just suck at doing that, I just do. Maybe if I had like a little, I don't know, maybe on the computer I could just do a quick whatever. It would be better at the end of the day, though, I think, but before I go to bed, I think, but before I go to bed.
Speaker 1:But you know, I was recording podcasts, but I was still in my depressed mode, but I didn't really realize. I was in my depressed mode Like I was talkative, like I was doing, like there was a you know a couple podcasts I did where it was just like bam, bam, bam, bam. But then it's like I would sit there and be like, gosh, I really need to, I need to organize my tools or whatever you know. But it's like I just it's like there's two parts of me hey, dude, you should organize your tools and the other guy's like, oh, fuck that, I don't want to do that, and the fuck, that guy always wins.
Speaker 1:It seems like when I'm in that mood and then, when I'm in my, what I used to think is like my good mood but it's like a normal mood is just getting some stuff done, you know.
Speaker 1:So I've just been slowly kind of organizing and that's kind of my life, though, like I'll spend, you know, a month or two kind of organizing and getting things like stuff that I've been, I like, because when I'm depressed I'll sit there and think about the things that I want to do. I just don't do it and I mean sometimes I do, sometimes I'll do a little something or whatever. I mean I don't do nothing. You know, I'll do laundry or whatever and a few things, this and that, but as far as like little little projects that I want to do, I don't do it. But but I'll sit there and think about the stuff I want to do. So then when I'm in my good mood then I start doing it and then I'll get to my bad mood where I don't touch nothing. So all the work I did just turns to crap again, sort of Like. It seems like I'll organize my tools and everything, like they'll sit there in a disarray for I don't know two months or something, and then I'll finally organize everything and put everything away and it'll sit there for a little bit and then I'll have some sort of project where I'll do it and I make a mess again.
Speaker 1:The thing is is like when I'm, when I'm in my, my manic, like like I just I want to get it done. Oh, I get done. Bam, throw this tool over here. Whatever, do this, like I don't pick up after myself. I'm like frantic, you know, as opposed to when I'm just in a good mood or normal, where I'll sit there and like take my time, get something done, put stuff away when I'm done doing it. So it's like I don't, but I don't always have those Like it's not in order, it's like it's not like I have manic, like right now I'm in a good, normal mood is, from what I can tell, I haven't had a manic high in a while, which is actually good, because I think it kind of I don't know, I'm hoping Things are going back to normal, but I don't know, I'm just kind of sharing Because I'll be in my manic and I'm just like Gotta get this done, gotta get this done. And I don't like you know, when I finish doing something and I'll put the tool away, I just push it aside. So when I'm done doing what I'm doing, like I want to. I want to Do this okay.
Speaker 1:For example, like build a smoker. Right, I have this whole smoker I want to build, because I have like a really rinky-dink, redneck kind of smoker built and it's kind of falling apart now and like it doesn't hold the heat very well. So I want to build a new one. And I got all these plans, I've drew them up and all this kind of stuff, but I just haven't done it yet. But like I'm choosing this as an example, but I'll, so I'll sit there and I'll have these ideas and then then either I'll just finally pull the trigger and start it, or like I'm in a manic mood and I just like and I just sit there all day, just sit there until I'm done, and then, once I'm done, I got the smoker built and I'm all happy.
Speaker 1:But then I got this huge mess and like I'm I'm like worn out, so I don't clean it up, and then I get into like a depressed mode and I don't care, and it just sits there, and then I'm like I don't know, I don't know, I don't get it. Does anybody else have the same crap? What I do know is it's kind of it's changing, though. Like it seems like I always kind of had like a cycle and the cycle is like there's still a cycle, but it's changing a little bit. I've stopped taking a lot of meds and like now I just take, like you know, tylenol, ibuprofen, zartan, which I need to make sure if I even need to still take that Melatonin to kind of help me sleep. I'm still kind of like trying out another Gabapentin which seems to help me, but I was thinking that it wasn't. I was thinking it was the culprit, but I think it was more the, the anti-depressants and anti-whatever with that, you know. So I think it works better. I don't know. Anyway, let me know if you're interested in how it works out. I guess I'll just talk about it anyway.
Speaker 1:But yeah, so that's kind of what's been going on with me, been kind of trying to, um, just clean and organize and stuff. So and I, I, I'm, I'm happy when I'm in that mood because I like to have organized, I like it to be organized, I do. But when I'm in my shit mood, I just I don't care and it sucks. It's so frustrating and it's so annoying. It's like come on, man, like I'm constantly instead of instead of like the devil and the angel on my shoulder. I got the depressed guy and the normal guy like come on, dude, let's do you know? Like it's just, I don't know, maybe it's one and the same, right? Anyway.
Speaker 1:Um, so I was just doing some organizing, cleaning some stuff, and I was listening to. That's usually when I, when I listen to to podcast, and it's usually Joe Rogan, I listen to other stuff, but and, um, you know I'll listen to that. And as I'm cleaning or doing stuff, um, and I'm listening to the last one with, um, um, quentin Tarantino, which he's been, I think he's been on once, maybe twice, but I think just one other time, so this was the second time. So and I, you know, I like Quentin Tarantino and I was like so, all right, so I'm listening to it. He's got his old buddy that he was you know friends with back in the day and helped him write hope, fiction and stuff like that. Anyway, then this guy's got his own, you know own stories and everything like that.
Speaker 1:So they're talking and right now, I don't know I'm about halfway through and they're talking about. What were they talking about? They were talking about a movie that was very sexual, to the point where it was almost like a porn, I guess, but they had to edit it. It was filmed like a porn, guess, but they had to edit it, like it was filmed like a porn. But then, you know, they didn't show everything supposedly, I don't know.
Speaker 1:But and then so rogan asked that he's like why, how come you can have people's heads being blown off and all this kind of stuff like that, and and then, but you can't show sex, especially if it's like between two consent. You know it's not like a rape or you know anything like that or it. You know it's just, it's, it's a normal whatever. And I used to think that too. I used to be like, yeah, why is that what's? You know sex is it's. You know the love between somebody, or you know it's. You know the love between somebody or you know it's. So you know the human body. You know I used to think all the same kind of crap.
Speaker 1:But what I've kind of grown to realize, as I've, you know, lived my life and I've been reading the Bible. I've been slacking a little bit lately though, sorry. Reading the Bible. I've been slacking a little bit lately though, sorry, um, but you know, praying the rosary and and and just learning about Satan and sin and everything.
Speaker 1:And I think that the reason why you know cause I mean, america was started created by Puritans. You know, and you know, a lot of the early history of America is based off, you know, protestant views and everything like that. So, and as much as there are different denominations and how they are against each other, whatever, but for the most part, the basic views are all the same. Um, and you know, sex is is one of them. You know, I remember I remember having the mormon missionaries come over to visit me and there was a magazine I think it was like a girl's magazine, you know, like a woman's, like cosmopolitan or something, I don't know, but it was a woman in a bikini. And then we sat down, the guy, one of them, flipped it over and he's like, oh, we don't want that. You know what I mean and I thought that was weird, right, like so what. You know what I mean and I thought that was weird, right, like so what you know.
Speaker 1:But, as far as you know, in film, why are they so much more strict with sex than than violence? I think it's just because lust is a sin that afflicts more people much more easily than any other sin. You know what I mean. Like everybody has, I think, a problem with lust to a point. You know what I mean Because you know, if you're looking at a woman and you're like, well dang, she's hot, dude, you've already lost, you already sinned, oh crap, especially if you're married, you know you've already, you've already, you've already cheated on your wife, basically, and I don't know. I guess when you kind of break it down like that or you kind of simplify it, it seems kind of extreme, but when you look at the state of pornography and the way things are going, it makes a lot of sense. You know what I mean Because, like, I remember, okay, being around that same age as that story I just shared about the Mormon missionary you know, me and my brother when we were 11, 12, yeah, that's about how old we were and we we found we were helping my dad do something and behind the bed he had like just stacks, excuse me, of Playboys, right, old Playboys.
Speaker 1:And me and my brother were like, oh yeah, dad, well, if you don't, whatever, this is not working to take your Playboys. And he's like, I don't care, go get them. And we're like, you know, we took off and we grabbed them and we divvied them up and I got to keep June because that was my birthday month, and you know what I mean. Like we had our whatever and it was like, oh, you know. And so at that time, you know, that was like whoa dude.
Speaker 1:And when you're young it's like a huge turn on. You're seeing naked women, all these things, and you're like, oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh. You know, you're all excited and and it's and it's, it turns you on, you know, because you're young. Now, if I was to look at that, it's like whatever it makes, no, some. I wasn't like a big porn watcher, but you know I I saw my fair share, I guess you would say, and but I remember like there was a progression of what you know. So at first it was just like regular, you know, 70s, normal kind of whatever porn. It was like oh, whoa, and make you want to have sex or jerk off or whatever.
Speaker 1:And then that starts getting old. And then all of a sudden it's like, ooh, two women threesome, oh, wow. Now then that gets old. Ooh, anal, oh what? Oh. And then that gets old Pretty soon.
Speaker 1:People are, you know some hot woman that has a penis which is actually a dude, you know. And then it's like whoa what? You know what I mean. So there's like there is a progression that happens and it's it's powerful, but at the same time it's like it's, it's. It's the same time it's like it's it's it's the whole boiling water thing with the frog. You know you're outside or you're in the water and it's just a slow boil and then, before you know it, you're cheating on your wife with a dude with fake implants or fake implants, or you know it's, it's a turn on for, um, you know animals and and and or children, or you know almost killing somebody, to the point of you know that's the only way for you to climax, but then you end up usually killing them and that's, you know, that's a big part of what serial killers. That was a problem.
Speaker 1:So think about that man, think, think of all the stuff that is inherently evil, that has to do with lust, man, there's so much, there's so much. You know you got child molesting, you got the serial killers, you got. You know, um, um, I guess those are whatever, but you know. And then, and they try and sit there and be like, oh, come on, it's just, it's love, it's love. And it's like no, it's a sin, it's lust. And that's how Satan gets you man. That's how it works. He gets you with the little, the little, the little Playboy magazines at the beginning, and then it progresses to this and to the point of where you can't even climax anymore with your wife or whatever, because it doesn't, it doesn't get you there. So then you, you gotta, you gotta, go that step further. That crosses you from being innocent whatever kind of pleasure to sin, which I mean it's all sin. But you know what I mean? What normal people would consider sin, it's not, it's, it all plays into it. You know what I mean.
Speaker 1:So it's like if they just started making movies that were as sexually deviant as they are violent, then things would be so much worse, you know I mean. I mean, look at, right now you got people in drag shows and half naked, letting little kids pretend they're strippers, and they're throwing money at them and and they're trying to make it to where it's okay for people to be attracted to kids and and and if you don't want to have a relationship with a guy with breasts, then you're, you're a phobe. You know there's something wrong with you. They're pushing all this crap on you. It's like whoa, like where did this come from? It's like it's been a slow, slow, slow progression, you know, and it starts off with the playboy magazines, the simple whatever porn, and that's why the beginning in the rating systems and the people who in charge started, I think it's just God really trying to keep, because if People watch violence, right, does it make them want to go and kill people?
Speaker 1:No, I mean some, yeah, probably maybe, because it turns them on, though, you know, and they might be like, they might see it and be like, oh, that's kind of gotten me aroused, right, but nobody watches, not nobody, but you know, hardly anybody watches a violent movie and thinks to themselves like, oh, I want to go do that. You know what I mean. As opposed to somebody watching some kind of sex thing and then they get turned on and they're like, oh, I want to go try that. You know what I mean. Such a, you know that's why they allow violence, as opposed to nudity or to sex in movies. You know what I mean. I mean you can still find movies with sex in it and stuff, you know, but because I honestly think it's just because that's that's. That's the easiest way that Satan gets you man it's through lust.
Speaker 1:And then look at Epstein, and look at fucking P Diddy and all the stuff that's starting to come out, and you know what I mean. Look at it all, just look at everything and just think to yourself, man, what. And it's true though, you know it's like, thankfully, like I used to, you know I used to like I would look at. If I saw an attractive woman, I'd be like whoa, and probably for like a second I would, my brain would like picture what it would be like to be with her. And that's cheating on my wife and Jesus in God's eyes, that's cheating on my wife, right? I mean, it's not like I'm sitting there staring at her, stalking her and whatever, but for a split second you'll see an attractive woman and you think what she might look like, naked on your bed or whatever. Maybe it's just a flash, but's just. But it's still, it's. It's, it is what it is. So now I don't, I don't have that as much, which I'm thankful for. You know what I mean. I'm not saying I don't ever notice an attractive woman, but it's very, I'll see them and I'm just like it's very I'm, you know I pray about it. I'm just like it's very I'm, you know I pray about it.
Speaker 1:I'm trying to be, you know, a good Christian and stuff like that. And and it's not so much I mean, I guess it should be like you know it's, it's more because it's the right thing to do. You know, in my marriage with my wife, you know what I mean. You know in my marriage with my wife, you know what I mean. And ultimately that's kind of it's, you know, like people think it's like, oh, you know, they want you to do all this stuff. So you're like you're God fearing and you and you're you live in fear because you don't want to upset. You know God and go to hell. I mean, yeah, there's that, but it's so much more than just that. You know it's. That's what makes you like a good person and you want to go to heaven.
Speaker 1:I just think that everybody's a little different. You have people who the idea of going to hell or heaven is enough and they're like, okay, I'm doing it, but then there's some people that are like, I don't know about that, but some people just want to be a good person, and so then there's that aspect of it. You know, I think there's people that will go to heaven that don't even really believe in god. You know what I mean? Um, they're just, they try, and you know, be a good person and live their life and and, and they don't really. You know, they just like I don't really. You know they're like I don't know.
Speaker 1:I think it's kind of hocus pocus, whatever. They don't really. You know, they're not into it, right, but they're just, hey, they're a good person. They don't really they don't sin because it's just kind of more natural for them. And you know, and those are the ones that God's not worried about. You know, he's not God, it's the whole thing is like it's geared towards the sinful. You know I'm a sinner and most the whole world is, you know, and that's those are the ones that that, that, um, jesus is afraid for and is, is, is wanting to help.
Speaker 1:Am I making any sense at all? I was just, I was listening to that podcast and I kind of thought about that. It's been a while now, I guess, but when he said that, I was like I was just sitting there thinking like, if I was there, this is what I would say to Joe Rogan, right now I'm like dude. This is why this is why I think you know blah, blah, blah. And so here I am talking on my little podcast. So, all right, well, that's kind of it, I think.
Speaker 1:Let me know what you think, um, you know, let me know you got any? What you're going through with the? You're depressing, depressing depression. Or you know, know, if you got bipolar, what do you experience with it? The meds, your stories? I would like to hear some stories. You can send me an email, theobjectivejerk at gmailcom. If you want me to talk about it, I will. If not, I won't. Or maybe I can redact a lot of stuff, whatever and um, and then what you think my take is on as far as like sex and films and everything like that, um, but it does kind of make you wonder, you know, it's kind of crazy. Anyway, that's all I got. Uh, thanks for listening, thanks for hanging out. I'll see you guys next time and God bless, all right, bye.
